Hey! Actually this blog is from 2009 but its okay i can still use it.
So I want to start afresh. Before anything else, I want to introduce a lil bit of things about me.
The reason I wanna make a blog is that I had a lot to say in mind but never really get to express it well thanks to my introvert attitude. I think 90% of the content of this blog will be in English, although that, it doesn't mean that I adore English more than my own native tongue which is Malay, but I just feel a lot more comfortable expressing myself in English. Why? I don't really know why I just did it. When I talk to myself or monologue-ing, I speak English. And I talk to myself a lot! Maybe this is weird but that's just who I am.
Also, someone who write in English language well doesn't mean they can speak as much as that. Same goes to me. I'm not an everyday English speaker, I don't talk in English to my family, friends or teachers (except English teacher :) but I'm trying my hardest to succeed in this matter but at the same time did not push away my Bahasa Melayu.
I'm easily distracted and easily deluded and easily believes in somebody's word or to sum this three up, I am gullible and blur.This bad attitude of me really stressing me out! I don't want to be someone who did not have any stand on my own opinion. I think I have too much weakness compared to my specialities. My biggest problem is that I think too much of what people think about me. This is the main reason of why I'm really shy and reserved and think two three four times before I speak. The only person who can see my true color and see me as who I am is my bestfriends whom I had known for a long time.
You can be my friend too but its gonna take time for me and I am kinda hard to approach as I am not that friendly and bubbly and all that. That's why I appear snobbish and stuck-up but the truth is I'm afraid. Of what? I don't know. I know this sounds stupid but it is what it is. I'm trying my best to change my attitude and behaviour so that I can be more urm.."human".
So that's all. I think I said a little too much. I know that we have the power to change for a better person. As the saying goes "May tomorrow is better than today, may today is better than yesterday". Thanks for reading !
